Life is totally out of control.
Before any of my well-wishers worry let me state that there is no crisis as such. Things are fine with the family, the missus and I am fine, and overall things are chugging along as they should. Rather it is just a feeling of helplessness that there does not seem any way to give direction to this vehicle of life, as if it is on it’s own rails.
Partly the reason could be that one often lets Life get out of one’s hand. A tough pill to swallow if you believe in going with the flow, as I do, but there is a limit to directionless. Probably been on this coaster for some time but now the mind is just pushing back. Need to get back on track (or more correctly off it 🙂 )
The funny thing is I haven’t a clue how to get the mind invigorated again – how to get the small things clicking – things like enjoying work, having hobbies, getting interested in waking up each day. Of course it does seem snobbish to worry like this when I have a wonderful family, good friends, fairly good income and a normal upper middle class life but there it is.
Enough moaning though, time to kick start oneself. This post is first step. Next step to start walking, write more posts, read more books, listen to podcasts, better diet, learn new skills, enjoy F1, football, cricket. Enough procastinating – time to do !!! 🙂
first step – try and upload this blog post from my mobile.